four things

+ This is the way my face has looked a lot lately, & I like it.

+ I bought a super cute bikini! It ended up being pretty expensive & I cant believe I spent that much money on something I wont be able to wear after the 11th of April for 6 months but oh well, it will make me happy until I leave!

+ If I don't have real Mexican food soon I'm going to die. I'm seriously on my death bed here!

+ My week has been very uneventful so far. Besides working 9 hour days, sleeping and talking to boyfriend I haven't done much of anything.

okay, its 4am & since I cant go back to sleep I'm going to go curl up in bed, watch the old movie channel until I have to get up & get ready for work at 5:30am

Have a beautiful day.

You deserve it

silly boy

I think boyfriend should go to "making silly faces in pictures anonymous"

they have it for drugs & alcohol, I personally feel that this is just as serious of a problem.

This picture was waiting for me in my inbox this morning.

It made me start my day with a smile & a little giggle :)

He's cute.

to see more silly faces by Bryce go here

I'm "in a relationship"

Bryce, Oh Bryce.

(unfortunately he isn't pron to taking "serious" pictures but personally I think his charming good looks shine through his silly faces, plus before this moment I never noticed how perfect his teeth really are... Scary)

Not that any of you guys are particularly interested in my love life, but I plan to tell you the following story anyways, because as Bryce says "I blog my whole life", so bear with me.

You may have heard his name mentions here before (in fact if you read those posts from bottom to top you can kind of see our rise & decline of a relationship). As you can see I met him on vacation on the Summer of my 16th year. I was visiting my best friend who was raised there & recently moved back. That month I was there was a world wind of events but I left that Summer not being sure of many things but one thing I knew for sure, I had left my heart in Utah, with Bryce. He was a soldier, about to leave for basic training, in his last few months of freedom. I was a teenage girl from Texas, without a job & no concrete plans for the future except to live life to the fullest & I was completely cynical about love (at this point in my life I thought love was nothing more than general attraction, that you had completely control of who you "loved" & for how long, & I was convinced that it was not heart stopping, there was no such thing has "fireworks" & "sparks" & marriage was equivalent to prison). Then, we met & he fell for me for some crazy reason I'll probably never understand & despite the fact that I was trying to keep my mind on the logically "No Brooke, you live in Texas, he is leaving, this will never work" I fell for him too. By the end of the Summer we were making crazy promises like "We are going to be together forever" & "The next few months will fly bye till my basic graduation then we will see each other again" & we were making plans for the future.
Unfortunately, a funny thing happens when you start becoming adults. You get selfish. You get mean. You start thinking a bit TOO logically. Add in a mix of missing the person you love so terribly you cant see straight & the frustration of the time you are suppose to see each other keep getting pushed further into the future & you have an emotional disaster on your hands, about ready to break. Maybe it was logical for us to break up like we did, & try to move on, find new people who we got to see more, or maybe people we cared for less so we wouldn't miss them so much when we weren't with them. But unfortunately, I couldn't do either. Not a day has passed since the day we met that I haven't thought about him & wished he was still mine.
Its been over a year of a back & forth games like "I love you, but I don't want to hurt you again", & "lets be friends" then quickly realizing we cant stay JUST friends, & trying to live without one another & then realizing that was close to impossible.
Yesterday we would've been together a year & six months.
But it was even better.. it was the day we got back together.

We've grown up, we've changed, & we've become 'somewhat' of adults right before each others very eyes.. but I'm glad one thing hasn't changed thus far.

More about Bryce: he is stationed in Korea, he has too many tattoos (just kidding! hehe but I do like to pick on him about this subject), he plays me songs on the guitar, he likes cars that go too fast & enjoys Scooby Doo, which honestly, if he didn't it would've been a deal breaker & is dreaming of one day becoming a cop, he is one of the most driven people I've ever met & the biggest hippie I've ever seen wearing a military uniform, & he has the absolute coolest mom.

So 'boyfriend' is finally boyfriend once again & all is right with the World & I can openly gab about how much it sucks when missing someone becomes a stable feeling in a relationship & I can confess to the World how much I really think about this boy without anyone passing judgement. :)

I'll follow you into the dark

Last night I had a dream.
It was a simple little dream, just you & I sitting next to each other.
We were being silly as always & laughing as usual.
Then, unexpectedly you grabbed my hand & held it.

It gave me butterflies even in my sleep.

In fact they were so intense they woke me up.

You visit me in my sleep & bring a smile to my face.

You move me.

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Dear 2010, Who can say that I've been changed for the better? But because I knew you I have been changed for good.

I was going to do a year recap,

but (no offense to life or anything)

this year wasn't my favorite..

I had some good times (getting my Harley for one!)

& the last two months have been amazing.

but most of it was not note worthy compared to some of the good times I've had.

I'm sure I had some good times...

but I was suffering from issues so much this year I guess I wasn't able to enjoy it & going over it again all I can see in the pictures is the pain behind my eyes & I can feel what I was going through all over again, its not so much fun.

So I am chunkin up the deuces to that year, & saying helloooo 2011.

Another year stronger, another year smarter.

This year:

+ I will work harder & make tons & tons of money & when I do I will NOT! go to the nearest clothing store & make it disappear. Even if I have to hide it from myself, I WILL SAVE.

+ I will make more friends, & not push old ones away when I'm feeling low & just want to be by myself.

+ I will make 2011's theme "Adventure!" Which means going crazy & trying new things! I feel like I really started to understand the meaning of really living in 2010. Now lets put that knowledge into action!

+ I will not let people run over me! Period.

+ I WILL learn new languages & instruments. Yes, notice the 's'. I'm setting my standards high for myself.

+ I will work out 5 days a week. Only exceptions are staying weeks at my friends house. Then I will allow myself to splurge (which will probably mean I'll be spending a LOT more time at my friends houses lol) ;)

+ I will become a vegetarian again. I loved everything about it, I felt better physically & mentally & then I allowed my mother to start shoving hamburgers down my throat again. I know its easier to just eat whatever then to be 'the vegetarian'. The one everyone seems to make food exceptions & I hate the awkward moment when you go to your friends house for dinner & they fix meat & then AFTER we are all sitting down someone decides to spill the beans I'm a vegetarian & you feel kinda bad. but it feels SO MUCH BETTER! & for all those people looking to go veg themselves, after a month it really isn't hard at all. I promise. Its just making the decision that's hard.

+ I will stop drinking sodas! I never really drink it that much anyways but when I do it gives me a tummy ache. Why drink something that is going to give you a tummy ache Brooke? That's crazy. No more this year!

+ I will stop watching so much television! I read a lot this year but there is always more room for books everyone's life.

+ I will open an.. ESTY! :D Its already in the works. I had some encouraging words from some friends about some projects I've made & I really want to give it a shot

+ I wont stress or be depressed. Not even for a second. This year I will be happy.

+ I will get more blog followers *wink* *wink* *nod* *nod*

+ This year will be the best year EVER!

+ Next year I will be with my love for my first ever New Years kiss. No matter what! (unfortunately some things separate us this year... Like an ocean)

HOPE EVERYONE IS HAVING A HAPPY NEW YEAR

Today distance suck & all I want to do is hold your hand

Think of me when you're out, when you're out there
I'll beg you nice from my knees
When the world treats you way too fairly
It's a shame i'm a dream

All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you

I think I'll pace my apartment a few times
And fall asleep on the couch
And wake up early to black and white re-runs?
That escaped from the mouth

Oh-Oh

All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you

I could follow you to the beginning
And just relive the start
And maybe then we'll remember to slow down
To all of our favorite parts

All I wanted was you

'Tis The Season For Red Bows

On Christmas day I made myself a little bow headband.

I was inspired by all the 1940's Christmas movies I was watching.

I also made a pink one, but tis the season for red.

My boy got his Christmas gift today, also red :) hehe

So I guess I can let go of my grudge on the postal service.. for now.

Its only a day after Christmas here but its TWO days after Christmas there.

& they told me it would be there by Christmas.

What liars.

AHHH!!! My eyes burn!

No, they really do.

I don't really know why but I woke up from my nap & they were burning. Ouchies!

But that is irrelevant to what this post is about

Have you seen this???

I had never even heard of it till today & my mom rented it & I was immediately drawn in.

The main guy in the movie has the same name of someone else that is very special to me.

Its not a common name though so hearing it made me do kind of a double or triple take.

Anyways, I normally don't like movies without extensive story lines but this movie was so short & sweet & to the point & I adored it.

Sunday was a Funday

Dear Mom,
Thank you for not being mad at me when I got a little cranky with you a couple of times today. & thank you for going & getting me a frosty, & letting me pick out what show we got to watch (CSI for the win!)

Dear Bryce,
Thank you for playing the guitar to me as I went to sleep at like 3 this morning, thank you for forcing me to finally go to sleep, thank you staying on web cam with me just cause I asked you not to leave me, thank you for being there when I woke up again, & thank you for saying I sleep cute. Thank you for spending your entire day off talking to me. You're silly but even though you are like 7000 miles away you still make me smile.

Dear Life,
I kinda like you right now. We've had some problems the last year, But the last few weeks you've had a million beautiful surprises for me & I'm starting to truly love you again. Just please keep this up, I beg of you!

I hope everyone else had a good Sunday as well!

Right Now

right now

• I really want some taco bell.. & I don't even like taco bell
• I'm really lovin my jean shirt (I'll never tell its from Miley Cyrus's clothing line.. oops..)
• I'm about to eat a PB&J nom nom nom
• I really love this song
• I really love Joyce Meyer & her words ALWAYS speak to the situation I'm in
• I really wish I was tired
• I'm glad I got to talk to a certain military man
  

Oh God.. I look like I have a double chin.

He is one of the few people that make me smile that big... Its kinda embarrassing...

shine on

whoa, whoa, whoa.
I've been in bed all day.
Today was the biggest lazy day I've had since I've been off!
I literally slept pretty much all day.
I've been staying up talking to Bryce every night, until he goes to sleep,
which is 9pm or 10pm in Korea, but more like 7am or 8am here.
So I just stay up till he goes to bed so we have plenty of time to talk.
Of course I cant blame it entirely on him!
I do have insomnia & haven't been taking my sleeping pills.
usually sleep till the early afternoon hours & then do it all over again the next night.
But I fear its catching up with me. Today I woke up at 4pm, then stayed up till around 6pm. I was laying in bed reading a book & just kinda dosed off.
I stayed asleep until almost 10pm!
Its been great talking to my favorite mister but I fear I'm going to have to come up with a better plan after I get back to work.


Anyways, I guess that is it for me tonight I'll leave you with some good ole' tunage.
This song never gets old to me because it promotes one of the biggest lessons I've learned & I think everyone should learn in their lives.
Never, NEVER, NEVER give up


but don't quit till you win your prize,
& remember your a diamond to me.

each & every one of you.

Brooke

Sunday Beach Day

Yeah, Yeah, I know I'm late.

But I wanted to show my good friend Bryce the last picture on here before I posted it on the interweb & I haven't been able to talk to him the last few days.

My mom's good friend was taking her two daughters to the beach the Sunday, & I must admit.

I had a great time.

& It wasn't even that humid!

(which is normally the reason I hate the beach)

We ate, we chilled, we swam.

Good Sunday.

I made this for my friend Bryce,
He has never seen the Ocean before & I promised I'd write him a message in the sand
He is currently serving our country in Korea & I cant wait till he gets out & moves to Houston & I get to see his face everyday, (I do now.. but web cam isn't the same).
& He gets to see the Ocean for real!

Inspirational Sunday

{via}
"Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it...It really is worth fighting for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk everything, you risk even more." - Erica Jong

I did it again...

I let my blogging get away from me...

Well I have good news!

Bryce hasn't left for the military yet.

In my other blog I totally posted something about how he hurt his wrist.

Well it looks like he sprained it so he wont be leaving till the day before my birthday (Feb 17th).

Yeah... great birthday present... haha

But I think it'll be fine.

He will be here for his birthday, Christmas, Valentines Day and our five month anniversary so he will be home for a lot.

Only problem is his home is like 23 hours away :(

but we have some plans that will hopefully be fallen through with for the next couple of months.

I really hope he gets to come down here.

I got to meet some many of his friends and family,

I hope to get to share the same thing with him.

Plus he has never seen the ocean!

I'd love to take him to the beach!

So on another note,

my camera is broken :(

I'm working on getting another one.

I hate not being able to post pictures with my blogs.

But don't worry.

THEY WILL BE BACK.

So the other day I totally spent the night at Rach's and we played in the rain...

Just like old times.

I've missed her..

I also got to meet her new niece :)

{this is a picture that I took on my phone, look how cute she is}

baby London.

So gorgeous.

Besides that I've just been sitting at home talking to boyfriend all the time.

Last night we talked for six and a half straight hours.

It completely made my day.

We are actually talking right now..

A lot of people say that long distance relationships don't work but to be completely honest,

I couldn't be happier than I am with him, with someone who actually lived here.

We make it work,

and I'm so happy.

:)

{I miss him so much}