shine on

whoa, whoa, whoa.
I've been in bed all day.
Today was the biggest lazy day I've had since I've been off!
I literally slept pretty much all day.
I've been staying up talking to Bryce every night, until he goes to sleep,
which is 9pm or 10pm in Korea, but more like 7am or 8am here.
So I just stay up till he goes to bed so we have plenty of time to talk.
Of course I cant blame it entirely on him!
I do have insomnia & haven't been taking my sleeping pills.
usually sleep till the early afternoon hours & then do it all over again the next night.
But I fear its catching up with me. Today I woke up at 4pm, then stayed up till around 6pm. I was laying in bed reading a book & just kinda dosed off.
I stayed asleep until almost 10pm!
Its been great talking to my favorite mister but I fear I'm going to have to come up with a better plan after I get back to work.


Anyways, I guess that is it for me tonight I'll leave you with some good ole' tunage.
This song never gets old to me because it promotes one of the biggest lessons I've learned & I think everyone should learn in their lives.
Never, NEVER, NEVER give up


but don't quit till you win your prize,
& remember your a diamond to me.

each & every one of you.

Brooke

Dear Brooke, your mailbox is full.

{via}

Dear ankle,

I know we haven't been friends for awhile.

Ever since I started dance when I was three I seemed to have been quickly destroying you.

& there was that one time when I fell down a flight of stairs & intensely hurt you.

& then.. continued to walk on you the entire day & dance without even giving you a brake.

(later to find out I tore a ligament and was making it worse {not that I would've done anything differently if I had know, I was a bad person then.})

But in the recent past I thought we have been reconnecting.

Until this last week...

You've been giving me trouble, & I honestly don't know why...

Please cut it out.

Dear New Phone cover,

I smiled when you showed up at my doorstep this morning.

You're beautiful in all your rainbow sparkly goodness.

Dear P90x ab ripper x,

I hate you!

But I love you!

Even though I skip though the first three ab workouts with the excessive knee in & outs.

I feel like an old women in saying this but, my knees just don't move like that anymore.

Dear Sleep,

visit me soon.

Dear Money,

Its lovely to have you in my wallet.

But,

I'm still confused as to how you disappear so quickly.

Dear Mom,

You drive me more crazy than anyone on this Earth!

but.. I love you.

Dear Batman (my jeep),

I know you love it when 'California Girls' comes on the radio.

You're beautiful & I love you.

You have been very good lately.

for that I am thankful :)

Dear Harley,

You are the cutest thing I've ever seen.

Dear Computer,

I haven't turned you on in two days.

Today I will try one more time before I take you to the store to get you shipped back to HP to get fixed...

PLEASE WORK!

Dear Friends,

You are great.

You guys are there when I need someone to talk to.

When I need to spill secrets.

When I need someone to cry to, or laugh with.

I feel blessed to have every single one of you in my life.

Dear Stranger,

I met you yesterday.

& the first thing you did was diss my mom...

& my dog.

You are an idiot.

You should be happy I didn't punch you.

I'm very protective of my family.

In fact you are sleeping downstairs as I type this.

Having a 'drum' practice with pots & pans sounds pretty good right now.

hehe

I wrote a schedule out for the next couple of hours.

Giving myself a set time to,

Do my work out (which I've skipped out on doing all day),

take a shower,

pack for my trip (yeah, still haven't done it),

take my sleeping pill and try to go to bed before 2am.

"Breakfast at Tiffany's" just came on tv

bye bye schedule.

Hello to

last minute packing,

a sleepless night

and showering without enough time for my hair to dry.

Dear late nights, I haven't missed you like I thought I would

Late nights have been my life lately.

I do not understand it, nor do I like it. I have suffered from insomnia even as a baby. But as I've gotten older I've been able to help monitor it a little with sleeping pills. But back in the day I used to never sleep and never wanted too. But that was back when I had a life and I was always hanging out with my best friends and partying all night. Now my friends have moved away or are in relationships that take up there time and I have a dog who is like an actually baby human being, who I spend most of my time taking care of. The last few nights I haven't been able to sleep a wink until around twelve in the afternoon and even then I only get a few hours. My sleeping pills have lost all effect. I've been suffering so heavily from health problems, my rest was the one thing keeping me going. I'm praying for an amazing recovery, my mom is talking "doctors", yuck! I'm hoping that once I get out of the house for the first time in forever this coming week I will start to feel like my old self again.