The diary of a young girl who is going through a mid-life crisis

Time.
That's whats been on my mind a lot on this relaxing day off.
I know most people cant wait till they turn 18.
'Freedom at last!'
I feel the complete opposite.
I was raised with a lot of freedom as I hit my teen years.
My moms rule was I could have freedom as long as I didn't brake her trust which, in all honesty, I've never really done. So my last few years I've had what most kids could only dream of. But I never took it to extremes, which I don't regret. I'm glad I didn't do EXTREMELY stupid things (not that I've never done any stupid things, I will admit I've had a fair share of those).
I think part of the reason becoming an adult is so bitter minus the sweet to me is because I've always expected myself to be so much further with my life.
I used to hate when people would ask me 'What do you want to be when you grow up?'.
I'd say 'No, its what do I want to be now.'.
I said I was going to accomplish everything & conquer everything before this age so when I was an adult I could find new things to accomplish & do.
So eighteen is not coming easy for me.
I have to not only worry about my career & school, but also, where I'm going from here.
Which is proven to be difficult seeing how a lot of things to me are depending on one certain thing that just seems to be in a constant stuck position.
I have no control of the situation either which is making me realize how much of a control freak I am!

Anyways,
because I want to end this post on a happy note so.. Let pretend like I'm actually looking forward to my birthday. What should I do for it?
I was thinking about doing it at a roller rink & to a 70's themed?
I'm just dying to bust out my tube socks & Farrah Fawcett hair.

Also, tonight I made a wish at 10/10/10 at exactly 10:10:10. It felt magical :)

What do you wish for?

- I wish I didn't brake electronics so easily... My computer, the thing transfers my pictures from my camera to the computer, my phone charger (I went through 10 phone chargers with my last phone), & now the dumb 'N' letter on the keyboard is almost impossible to press.

- I wish I didn't forget/ leave things places. (my crocheting needle this time..)

- I wish I wasn't on a different time zone as the one person I really want to talk to right now. Stupid military... (I say that out of anger of course, I don't mean it)

-I wish I was at the beach right now watching the sunset. I think it should be a law to live this close to the Ocean & to not have been all Summer. But its just no fun alone, ya know?

- I wish Harley would come & stay in my room. I cant have him running around the house doing God knows what with all these people at our house right now! Its a disaster waiting to happen.

- I wish Monday would come already. I cant wait to go back to work.

- I wish I was at the movies watching 'Eat Pray Love'.

I wish I was a better blogger.

wishes & eyelashes

Do you ever make wishes on your loose eyelashes and then blow them away?

i do.

I was so excited today.

I had FIVE!

(as you can barely see on the table in the picture above)