Then I got hit by a bus...

Tonight it hit me.
That I'm really leaving.
For the first time instead of talking about how "exciting" me leaving was I really got to thinking about how sad its going to be too.
& I cried, I wont lie..

Here are the things that I will miss

1. Not having my mom there to go crawl in bed with when I'm having guy problems.. or I'm just on my period & in an emotional mood.

2. Having my puppy there to cuddle with. He always takes my troubles away with one head tilt. He knows when I'm sad & when I'm mad & knows how to comfort me.

3. Dr. Pepper. I've given up the addiction... but not even having the option to go buy one even when I'm having a really bad day?? Harsh....

4. My friends. I know I've been so busy lately & I've been horrible at keeping in touch. But I have met some of the COOLEST people growing up. Its so sad leaving them behind. We are all growing up, doing our own thing. Its sad.

5.I'm going to miss one of my best friends, Chellce's, graduation.
A day I once planned on wearing a "I HEART CHELLCE" shirt & bring a megaphone to, I will now be halfway across the World. Sad day.

6. Netflix

Now that reality has set in I think I better hit the hay so I can spend as much time tomorrow hanging out with people since its the last time I will get to see most of them.

I can promise you, tears will be shed.

Goodnight lovely followers.

Kiss the ones you love.

You never know when their destiny will call them/you somewhere else.

I relapsed

{via}

My addiction started when I was a few months old.

I had flem in my throat that was making it unable for me to breath.

My mother took me to the doctor & he said that some type of coke or carbonated drink would break it up.

Since my mother was extremely against coke, she decided to give me her favorite, Dr. Pepper.

I didn't snort it, or shoot it up, but I did prefer it with ice, & fountain, not canned.

It was a beautiful romance, but as I aged I noticed a little pooch at the bottom of my belly.

I've seen other people cut soft drinks out of their diet & it helped them get rid of theirs so I decided to do the same.

I went through with drawls.

It was terrible, I'd get headaches & craved it so badly.

I sucked it up.

As I started to get more into health & learning about my body & things that are good for it & bad for it I learned a lot about what a little glass of that stuff does to you & how terrible for you it really is!

I vowed to never pick up a glass again, & haven't missed it.

I've had people buy me one & have to push it aside or pretend to drink it.

I've had to straight up say 'no'.

I've had all my friends order them & I've said "just water thanks".

But today, the very woman that started the addiction in the first place put a glass in my hand.

"You don't have to drink it" she said. "I just ordered it & don't want it"

I brought it inside the house & stared at it for awhile & then I took a sip...

within minutes it was completely gone.

I feel terrible, my high didn't last that long, & now my stomach feels like its going to explode.

Just say no kids, just say no.

Nathan Alexander White

I'm so proud of my Nathan!

He graduated yesterday.

He's only sixteen.

He is brilliant.

He also was his student body president.

Next stop,

president of the united states

I got super tired during the ceremony

Me and John's favorite part was the old fashion Dr. Peppers :)

CONGRATULATIONS NATHAN!

I LOVE YOU