Thanksgiving

I am thankful for:

My wonderful, amazing, awesome, blog followers. Who always lift me up when I'm feeling blue. I don't think you understand how many times I get your comments & go to my friends or mom & say "Look what {insert name here} said on my blog today! Each & every one of you are appreciated greatly.

- My mother, who despite the fact that she makes me more angry than anyone on this planet. She gave me life, & continues to make it a great one. I love you.

- My best friends (especially you Rachel, I love you thank you for never giving up hope on me).

- Being a vegetarian

- My HARLEY!!! awww... I love my little doggie so so so much.

-My job, who has became more of a second family. I'm so blessed to have them!

- My amazing family & friends & support system that I am blessed to have!

- The ability to love & be there for someone who doesn't choose to do the same for us, & the strength to be able to want to do that for someone else.

- Freedom

lonely

Sometimes I just feel like talking and talking until my words aren't apart of me anymore,

they are apart of the air

and suddenly they are not my problem and I am free.

I pride myself on being a good listener and being good at giving advice, when it is needed.

But what happens when the listener needs to be listened to?

And I love my friends for there... naive-ness, but it isn't fun when no one understands what you are feeling.

And then when you finally do find someone you think understands and you let them spill about whats going wrong with them and you finally feel the freedom to let go, and say all the things you've kept inside...

and they just ignore you, as if they don't understand what your say, as if its some foreign language.

I just want to find one person who will listen to my ramblings and not expect anything in return, and actually understand what I feel.